done

i have EVERYTHING that i absolutelly need to print my last set of what i want to use in my presentation.

i made a big mistake and i kept telling everyone that my websit is www.blogspot.com/poemsofthepresent when its actually poemsofthepresent.blogspot.com ahhh i'm such an idiot but hey i'm human and we all make mistakes sometimes so no sweat im just going to correct everything tomarow and it will all be good.
this week is so overlad for me i hav emy dance show to prepare for and my presentation for this ahhhhhhhhhhhh.
i had the district assesment test today and all i could think of is my presentation it was so distracting

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh my last artist is not giving me her art work and it is really stalling me.

vacation

well i have been on vacation for the past 2 weeks and just got back monday so i haven't really worked on anyting. it was very relaxing it brought out some sides of me i didn't know and really gave me a huge break from everything. eventhough wen i came back from mexico last tuesday i had to stay home tell this monday because of the whole swine flu thing. now i'm head over heals in hw and quizes. i think i am handling myself very well because i broke down everything i need to do into days so that i can manage my time.
i finally got art from my second artist, and now i'm yelling at my third artist to bring herwork to me so that i can pubish my last and final copy. then my project will be completlly done and will have fullfilled my dream for this year.
i need to go and plan my presentation i don't know if i should have a power point or not because i wouldn't know what i would wantto put in there other then my poetry and maybe some pointers for myself so that i can present easier.

stress or no stress

this past week has been very stressful because of the research paper. i told myself last year that i wouldn't wait tell the last min. to do my research paper and guess what you guess it wrote it last min. but i think it was an alright paper because i wrote about how organizations help poets in slam poetry to be noticed and stuff like that.

i'm going on a vacation next week so i had so much stuff to do this week i wanted to finish all the homework before i went to the vacation so i had that. plus i also had to enroll in dvs and sign up for counsling 101 and my dad would never give me a car (i have my license) to go and do that so i had to wait for my mom to take me there. there they almost made me have to go thru the enrollment into the college proses again (althought i enrollled last semester), but i talked them out of it. another thing tha ti had to get done was find a job. i've been trying to find a job almost everywhere i can possiblly think of. i'm going tomarow to san francisco to try and get a job at a vallet parking place where my friend workd he said that he will try to get me in.

my 18th b-day present was a self built guest room in the back yard so now i live outside the house in my own little world. and this week i hosted 4 b-day parties in my room and everyday ended up lasting tell like 3 am in the morning so i barelly got any sleep this week and i still managed to finish a bunch of homework and my research paper. on top of all this i'm training my great dane and preparing him for show.

well i finnally got some art work from my artists and it is amazing. the one she drew for the marshmellow cow is amazing. it is a marsmellow on a stick and that cow is hanging on to it for dear life with a question mark above its head. when i first saw that i could not stop laughing. my cover is a mans bear chest with an eyeball in the middle of it and allthough it sounds kind of weired i like it and it says a lot and absolutely nothing all at the same time. there is one that is especially amazing because it is of a heart that is bleeding and to the side there is a pencil and a paint brush which is cool because thats what my project is about: my feelings writing them and people drawing them for me.

i'm preatty much stuck in work right now i have no idea what more i can be doing with my project except my research paper. my mentor helped me in starting it she told me that i should come up with a question that i want to answer and that will help me figure out what is it that i should write about. because i know a lot about slam poetry already and i can't write about just slam poetry because that is just very broad. i think i'm going to focus my slam poetry paper on the effect on teens. and i think i'm going to involve the slam for teens program or something like that. the one i went to on friday

friday

i finally got to a computer to write something about my Friday. i took 3 of my friends with me and had a fun time we went to the library first and listened to people read there poetry and it was very emotional for one girl. she wrote a poem about the place were she grew up and how the life of hers is so messed up with her friends being raped cars being stolen and how it hurts her. now i don't know if that was about her life or if she just wrote this from her mind so i don't know how much truth is there. she did a very good job and i really liked her poem. another women there wrote a poem about her self and how she is and that she doesn't care what people think about her she is just herself and nothing else and if some one doesn't like that well to bad because that is the way she is. there was one guy there and he wrote a poem about alcohol and how it affected his and his mothers life. it was really cool because he used a new song " blame it on the alcohol" he used one line from that song which was like almost a punch line in his poem. only difference is that his poem was serious so it was preatty emotional to hear it and at the same time it was interesting. i went in front of everyone and read one of my lame poems and idk i felt weired but i guess it was fun in the end because i actually got into it when i read the poem after like the 4th time and i really liked the way i read it because it gave some life to the poem.

after the library we went to the slam poetry teen semi-finals, and oh my god it was amazing i saw one girl from my school there and she thought that she invited me there but i never got her email but i still showed up so it was cool. we also saw the 3 readers from the library perform in the semi-finals and the second girl we heared the one that wrote the poem about how she is got really high scores. one thing i noticed about all the performers was that they either talked fast, or had A LOT of emotions in there peices and it was just very cool to hear other people perform and the type of peotry that they wrote. some of them were about the peoples experiences and some were about hypotheticals but still a general statement to some one weither it was to there mom or about a "friend" it was always about some one or to tell some one something. none of them were about just random stuff.

i have watched some slam videos on youtube and there was all sorts of poems and i really like it sept i can't talk infront of people i can dance in front of anybody and in anything but i can't speak. well i can but its not as easy as dancing for me

planning this out was a lot of fun eventhough when i got home i ended up in trouble anyway because i got home around 12 althought i week before i told me dad "i'm going to be home around 12"

my idea for community service totally failed because i couldn't find anyone who could help me at the time because everybody was to bussy with the show. oh well i'm just going to go to the lindsey wildlife musuem and work there.

blogs

i found some low end poetry blogs that i joined and posted some of my poetry to see what people think of them. a lot of people that have read my poetry have said that they loved it and i should continue making more and it is a very good feeling when someone tells you that you have suceeded in something. my day to day life is much happier now because i have acomplished something that nobody expected and i have got them to like it. i feel really proud of myself. i am thinking of publishing another set, but i don't know if i will have enought time to make more poetry and with school and this project it kind of overwhellming some times. over all i think i'm on track and in a good position. i am planing to go out to open mics and present my poems there. we are having an open mic at school and i want to perform my poems but i have a feeling everybody will make fun of me because there are a lot of people at school who don't like me but that won't stop me from performing and speaking my word. i also found another wrting workshop that i am planing to attend.