open mic

so i was told to look into going to some open mic shows. i just spent about 26 songs worth of time looking for a place i can go and be able to perform my poetry without having it copywritten. i found three places that are close and look and sound good to go to. Petars Restaurant in Lafayette which holds an open mic on the second monday of every month. Melt which is in san francisco and it holds its open mics on mondays and fridays and tonight is a originals only night and i think i might go to it all thought it is in about 2 hours and i don't think i can finish all my chores, but i'm hoping for it but then i also have to take into consideration my ride there and if my friend can take me there or not because my parents won't take me there. the last and final place that i looked for was the Black Magaic Vodoo Loundge also in san francisco althought i couldn't understand when the open mic is he did say they have that. sounded like acdc came into there place or atleast somebody yelled "acdc is in the house" haha :)

well i have picked out some poems that i want to put into the book one being the marshmellow cow. it is only 4 lines but it is very funny has nothing to do with anything and it makes one think about what the poem actually thinks. another one i want to put in is the one that my mentor helped me create well told me that i should try to make it like this: i had my binder for a couple days and i wrote down stuff that i saw random just say it and wrote it down. then after those  days i went back to the top of the page and just put all the words together, but not only the words i added stuff in between he words so it would make more sense even thought it absolutely makes no sense it is still fun to read and try to understand everything that is going on. one more that i know i absolutely want to add is one that is about me. it has to do with getting a chance with some one that would care and it is very emotional so i really like it. i want to put in one called "Bullshit" it not anything to do with bad words but it talks about how i feel and how my friends effect me an what they have done for me.

on another thought i want to go to kinkos on saturday if i'm not to busy working at home because i am trying to move into another room outside the house witch will give me more quiet time and i would be able to write and get inspired without any distractions from anyone. 

kinko suprise

i just called kinkos on my ta period because i didn't have any work and to make 10 copies of about 20 poems (1 poem per page) it is about 20 dollars but that is without binding it because i need to go to the store to pick a cover, but the person i was speaking to said that it won't be to expensive. so i can probably sell a copy for about 4-5 dollars. i am so happy that it is that cheap because then i can send a copy to a couple publishers in the bay area at about 5 dollars a copy and yay i'm so happy i have moved forward a little bit.

yesturday i did some more research on greek poetry yet i still haven't read any it looks very interesting. i have got the number of kinkos and i'm planning to call when i don't forget to call after school so that should get me on a start to publishing my own book. i'm setting a goal right now to publish my version of the book next week no latter and sell some to my friends . not for profit but just to rein-burst myself. i am looking for an outside mentor and it is really hard i have no idea were to go and i seriouslly am stuck without outside help right now :(

i am currently doing some research on the history of poetry and i found that it might even be older then literature it self.  "In prehistoric and ancient societies, poetry was used as a way to record cultural events or tell stories"(http://www.poemofquotes.com/articles/history-poetry.php). The oldest poem is "Epic of Gilgamesh" it is a story about a king. This site has a lot of information about the history and i think i just figured out what i am going to write my reashech paper on and its going to be greek poetry.

yesterday my amazing teacher helped me find a place were i can contact for some help. it is a river of words art contest even though  it happened on the 15 i contacted the main person and told that person about the senior project and how i want to publish my poetry and i needed help. although i don't have a response yet i hope i will if not i will contact the general people and try to get help thru there. i still have not gone to the library because i have been packed with hw this week and i use my spare time for that but i just had too much this week so i figured i'll take a lil break. i was suppose to visit my mentor today but i completely forgot so i set a reminder on my email and my phone to come in tomarow. i'm really starting to get this reminder thing down. i'm very forgetful so i am working it out and trying what works best and email is number one for now.

poems

i looked at all my old poems and it looks good and I'm starting a collection to get it ready to publish it thru kinkos. i am going to do research poetry tonight and figure out what i want to do my research paper on i am choosing between doing it on the history of poetry or write it on a poet I'm choosing between Poe or i need to look for a newer poet that i might like. i am going to look at poetry and go to the library to find some poetry that i might like and try to look for a newer style to write in and find some more inspiration

today i finished my collage of words and wrote a poem of it it is so freaking funny and it makes absolutely no since what so ever and i like it because it is random. and i also wrote one about a kiss and the different things it makes people feel and just the stuff one person might think about it i got 8 different ways to explain it and its cool because it is something new and i actually like it because it was a challenge to write and it was hard to come up with stuff other people would think and feel from just a simple thing like a kiss.

trouble

I'm having trouble writing anything in this journal because i don't really do anything else then write poetry. what i really need to do is start looking for a mentor outside of school and that is really hard to find because people are busy.

i am getting my inspiration for my new poetry from everything and anything whatever I'm doing I'm just writing down stuff i see and here and then I'm going to write different poetry from all the stuff that i have written down. it should give me a lot of poems because they are all different times and it should be pretty random and have nothing t do with me because that s my goal and it should be good.

my plans for the up coming week is pretty solid. i want to write a collection of 25 randomness poems about everything and anything but me. that well probably take me a week or two, because i am not use to writing just about whatever. my plans after that is to go to fed ex kinkos and self publish about 10 copies and sell it to my friends and teachers and get some review on what they think about it and what i should change maybe. from this i will learn some of the publishing stuff and selling. i think i will be able to finish this in the two weeks if i have nothing in the way. my huge problem right now is to find an outside mentor. i am having a lot of trouble with this because i don't know anybody and on the internet they usually cost money :(

:(

well overall this week has not been my top notch. I've been very sick so all i have been doing is thinking of different things i can write about and other things i can do to inspire me to write about other things. i tried looking for some help online but that failed miserablly. either nobody is available or they don't want anything to do with me or they cost money and thats not the kind of help that i am looking for.

being sick is making me miss a lot of school so i think i'm going to have to slow down on my project again so that i can use my spare time to catch up on school work so that i can then free up my time and do more project work.

right now i really wish that i would have just taken an English class instead of senior project because it is so much work that its really stressing me out. but i think that i should stay and just keep trying harder right now and not worry about the outcome because in the end i still would have learned something success or not success

first day back

today i talked to my mentor and she helped me a lot with my poetry. gave me some hits and pointers on how i can diversivy my writing.