blogs

i found some low end poetry blogs that i joined and posted some of my poetry to see what people think of them. a lot of people that have read my poetry have said that they loved it and i should continue making more and it is a very good feeling when someone tells you that you have suceeded in something. my day to day life is much happier now because i have acomplished something that nobody expected and i have got them to like it. i feel really proud of myself. i am thinking of publishing another set, but i don't know if i will have enought time to make more poetry and with school and this project it kind of overwhellming some times. over all i think i'm on track and in a good position. i am planing to go out to open mics and present my poems there. we are having an open mic at school and i want to perform my poems but i have a feeling everybody will make fun of me because there are a lot of people at school who don't like me but that won't stop me from performing and speaking my word. i also found another wrting workshop that i am planing to attend.

getting ready

i'm really looking forward to friday i have got together some of my friends so that i don't have to go alone and be bored out of my mind  even thought i'm pretty  sure it will be a lot  of fun and i will make some more friends but more about that later. i really have no idea what i'm going to be doing project wise because i'm waiting for my artist to finish there pictures so that i can publish my final book so i think for now i'm going to be going to workshops doing open mic and watching slam competition

overdose

My World

 

Why does she do this why does she try

She keeps on ruining me and leaves me to cry

I go home after a day at school

I just want to slit, and drown in my own pool

Of blood which sounds good right about NOW!!!

Of God please tell me why and freak in’ how

Can I stop these thoughts from filling my head?

I just wish that I would just be dead

And then just regret everything I’ve done

While I’m there chillin with my dead homies. Fun

Now I’m chillin now I’ll never die again

Because I’vev done it already so I don’t feel no pain

Jus rotting body 6 ft. underneath your feet

But my soul is flying my soul is eternaly alive swee

Maybe he’ll give me another shoot may be another chance

Maybe this time I won’t mess up maybe I will dance

With the right perople and the right stuff

Maybe I won’t be skinny maybe even buff

All I really want is my sweet heart

To take me on a trip of love. Then I won’t depart

I want to be with her and never leave her side

Watch the sunset watch the moon and the tide

Have a romantic dinner on a sandy beach

Only problem is that there is no beautiful beach

That would match her looks her styles and her taste

But I will do my best and hope it don’t go to waste

Cuz it would be my second chance this I can’t mess up

One more time I can’t mess up.

above is just a preview at what my work is like

well i just overdossed on information about poetry slams. the history, what it is, major players, and other shinanagins like that. i'm not really sure if i'm suppose to say what i found in my research in here because that would take up enought space but i'm going to look at other peoples journals and i shall be writing here soon.

i am having a lot of fun with my project. i am right now looking for a poetry workshop to go to and possible getting into a slam competition but i don't know yet. my only problem right now is my mode of trasportaion. i have none...

my goals right now include: pushing my artists to finish there works so i can publish some hard bound books with art work, push myself to do more research and write my paper, go to a workshop (to show that i did something else other then just write poetry and print it out in a cool looking booklet), get my license so i can get a car so that i can go to a work shop so that i can prove that i'm doin more then just printing my poetry so that i get a good grade on my project so that i can graduate. hehe i just wrote a poem :) i'm amazing. i swear i'm not full of myself.

i just remembered that i need to put pictures in here so i will get that done asap

Added 3/23/09

this is my addition to the post of last week

some of m research includes

finding out that Marc Smith is the one that is given credit for starting slam at Get Me High Lounge in Chicago. The biggest battle of slam ,which included a team from Chicago and a team from San Francisco, took place at Fort Mason. this initially  started the slam movement.

the way a slam goes is the M.C. chooses some judges and there are competitors and there are rounds were the poets get about 3 min each and then are judged and the elimination rubric is usually 8-4-2. there are many different slam competitions. on is called an "open Slam" this is the most common slam type. "invitation Slam" only invited slammers get to perform. "Theme Slam" is were there is a certain theme and the slammers have to say poems that have to do with the theme. theme slams are sometimes restricting but this is so that all demographics are heard

greek

ok so pretty everything i look up for greek poetry all it has to do with is Homer and no body really knows all the perfect details. so i have decided to change my topic because i don't think i can write enought about something that even the web doesn't know a lot about. so i now have to think about what to write about my week this week was preaty much wasted because i researched a lot but got nothing out of it. i'm really sad because now i know that i won't be able to fill up this journal. i'm going to try and get people to comment on my work and i will post some of the comments on here.

artists

i am done with m project right now but i'm going to take it some steps further. right now i am ready to give out book because i printed out the copy that i want and its double sided with no art and its just black and white and the cover is blue. the title of my book is "randomness and life of a teen." i gave it to one person so far to do some drawings for me. the dead line that i gave to this person is may 1st i am looking for a couple more artist to do some drawings in my book who will also get the same dead line. after i get all my at work together i am going to publish a book with artwork and i want it to be hard bound. this week i am going to focus on finishing my research report.

well me going to publish my book was sucessful because i figured out what i really wanted. not i'm having my mom make a bunch of copies of cheaply made book to give out to my friends. this saves me a lot of money. now i am trying to audition artist to create me some art work to go along with my poetry and this will make the book that i really want i am still looking for an outside mentor because i haven' t been able to get out and go to any open mic shows. i need to contact the girl the said she would help me.

today was an amazing day i am done typing up all my poems so now all i have to do id go to kinkos and print the stuff and give them out to my friends woot woot.  i have 15 poems that i put in. including "Fake" which is about my feelings and how i act everyday.  "My World" it is about how everything bad happens to me and what i want out of life. "The Orange Spot" this girl on bart one day was drawing everybody she say and she was really good and she had an orange spot on her cheek from painting. "Crying Cuz Of Bullshit" this poem describes my feelings to my friends and how i live from day to day or don't live? "Feelings & Love" describes how the too combine. "Painless Heart" i heart that feels no pain is not the ideal. "Feel, Heal" hands and eyes that feel and heal. "Marshmallow Cow" it is just a random poem about a cow and a marshmallow. "Feelings" it is about how i believe that the people around me feel and how everybody is also hiding. "Purple Diamond" is about a car even-thought it doesn't sound like it to start with. "The Cat" is about a boy who can't speak up to a girl he likes and the cat has his tongue. "The Wise" it is about poets and describes that they are the wise because they think about what they say. "The Box" just and obstacle and the poem describes how somebody can over come that with ease but not seem like it. "3 Days Words" it is a random poem no structure nothing it is just me collecting words for 3 days and put them all together to make a short poem . "8 Ways to See it" is a poem of new style that my mentor suggested that i do it looks at a kiss from the perspective of 8 different people.

those are all the ones that i want to publish i might come up with more but i don't think i can come up with enough to publish a book.